I'm back, y'all!

Geesh... It looks like I missed the brawl of a lifetime last week! People have no class. Period. What a great group of friends we have on here is all I can say. When I started blogging, it wasn't for any other reason than I just had stuff to say. I have never judged anyone for what they blog about whether it be about their kids, husbands, wives, jobs, economy... whatever... and I certainly don't want to be judged. Who are you to judge me anyway? My saying is.... When you walk a mile in my shoes, then you get to judge me. If you have not... then piss off. Kindly.

Okay... please don't be mad at me for being gone so long.I promise I have a good excuse!




I know!!!!!!!!!!!
It all started about the 2-3rd week in January. I just felt like dogcrap. I was hungry, but did not want to eat. I took one taste and was just turned off. J kept telling me that he thought I was pregnant and I kept telling him I was not. I took a pregnancy test right after the first of the year (it would have been about 4 weeks) and it was negative, so I just assumed I was not. I called my Dr around the last week in January to get a blood test and the weather was so bad that I did not feel like driving downtown to the lab and just put it off. By Monday, Feb 2, I was feeling rough and I called the Dr. She could not get me in until Tues, so I just went to the drugstore and picked up a urine test. What a whammy! Total shock. Needless to say, we were thrilled. I called my OB immediately and they scheduled me for an appt on Fri, Feb 6. I had my first ultrasound that day and everything looked fine. My hCG blood levels are elevated and my Dr is concerned, but other than that.... everything looks good. I had my second ultrasound (see above pic) on Feb 20 and little Peanut (That's the nickname that Elle has bestowed upon my little one) was moving around like crazy! I have seen ultrasounds before, and just been amazed... but when it's YOURS... what an awesome sight. Luckily, I had my sickness in the evening and have not missed any work. Mostly, I just felt nauseous and very, very tired. The last thing that I wanted to do when I got home was look at a computer. I have had some weird cravings, too! Tomatoes, Pizza Bread, orange juice, olives and I had a vanilla milkshake from McDoanld's today and now I want another one! Oh yeah... my boobs are HUGE!

See guys, I haven't been this far along before. With my pregnancy in May, I had no symptoms at all. I had an u/s at 8 weeks and 2 days. The day that my 11th week started, I went in for the u/s and there was no heartbeat. I had no warning. No indications at all. That hurt. Talk about feeling like you have just been hit in the gut. So, as you can understand, I am very, very nervous from one appt to the next. I had told alot of people about the pregnancy and it seemed for weeks after the miscarriage, people still came up to me and asked how I was doing and it was so painful to tell them that I lost the baby. This time... I have guarded the secret with my life. My mother has been about to go crazy because I have not let her blab it to every single person in Wal-Mart. It's just something that I want to protect for a little while longer. After my ultrasound on Thursay, we will probably tell the boys and then it will be all over town cause you know kids can't keep a secret! If anyone has Facebook, don't post anything until I do.

My Dr has classified me as high risk due to my age and the elevated hCG levels, so hopefully, I will get more u/s to keep me assured that everything is fine. Due to my age, I am at a very high risk of a Downs baby. I'm not sure if the hight levels have anything to do with it or not, but I am concerned because my Dr is concerned. I feel so much better being out of the scary 1st Trimester. Still have 6 months to go.... but I feel so much better! Keep Peanut and me in your prayers, y'all!