Sorry I couldn't get the picture size down more....
I look at myself in the mirror and can not believe that I am this far along. My body is changing so much! The boobs are bigger, which is not a blessing to me cause they were big anyway. It is such a blessing and I am terrified that something is going to happen. I am told that this is very normal and I try to just take one day at a time and thank God for another day closer to my baby's arrival. My neighbor and good friend, Tara, has twin girls that are 3 months old. (I actually think I conceived the day they were born in December!) I was at the hospital looking at them in the little tiny hospital window wondering if I would ever get a chance to have my own and now, I am on my way. The babies are such a sweet blessing to be around. I am getting plenty of practice while helping Tara take care of them. I had Bryce (Totally came up with that name and she loved it and named her that) and Ayden this morning here at work for about an hour while Tara ran an errand and Bryce started crying immediately after she left. I left her in her car seat and tried to give her her bottle, but she would have nothing to do with it at all. I finally picked her up and by this time, she was madder than a wet hen. Usually, when the twins are crying, if they don't settle in a few minutes, someone will pick them up and they settle down immediately (though they aren't spoiled). But, she started crying louder. It hit me.... This is what it's going to be like. What if I don't know what's wrong? How will I know how much to feed them (I want to breastfeed)? All these questions went through my mind and I felt panic. Everyone says that it will come naturally, but I am just wondering if I will know when the time comes. I hope so.
I went to the Dr a week ago and he got onto me for not drinking enough water. Blah.. I hate drinking water! ETW saw a post on Twitter about the taste and emailed me and gave me a good idea about freezing my favorite juice (OJ) in an icecube tray and putting them in the water. The idea was a good one and it has helped. (Thanks and you ROCK). My taste buds are just WAAAAAAAYYYY off and not a whole lot tastes good to me right now unless it is tomato or pasta related. Sleep is hard to come by. I wait until about 11-Midnight to go to sleep just so I can sleep through the night. Hubby gets home at 5 a.m. and I wake up again and have a hard time going back to sleep. Sometimes, he will go get into K's room and not disturb me. His allergies are acting up and he has started snoring and that disturbs me as well.
There are so many changes and I had no idea! But, I would give up everything just to have this baby healthy. Y'all keep praying for me and my next Dr's appt is on April 14th and if the baby cooperates, I should know what I'm having!
8 comments:
You look great! If you are planning on breastfeeding, I recommend taking a class on it before the baby comes...especially if you're a bit anxious about that. I should have done that with my first, because it would have helped me alot. My next appointment is 2 days after yours, the 16th! I can't wait to hear more of your good news. Keep on eatin'! :)
Oh girl, you look so beautiful - def. have that Mama Glow goin' on!!! I know it must be nerve wracking w/ all the "what ifs & how will I know etc." - but it is true, it will all come naturally to you - after all, no one is going to know that baby better than YOU! Just trust your instincts... :) & btw...it's usually 1 of a few things - they're hungry,dirty diaper, bored,colicky or just plain tired...if it's none of those - promply hand baby to hubby & exit the building for a few!!! :)-
You look amazing, JFab! You have definitely been in my thoughts and will continue to be. Good luck at the appt and let us know what you are having.
And ETW is so smart!
Awww, Mama...you look just like Nicole Richie, except with boobs, and no tattoos. And I know you're not asking ME about baby advice, so I'm thankful you have all these wonderful mommies on here to point you in the right direction.
You'll be fine. I've never in my life met anyone with more of a maternal instinct than you have. You and HR will figure things out as you go :) Heart you!
Thanks to all of you for your sweet compliments!
GiGi: I will for sure look into taking a class... I need all the help I can get! You have to let me know how the appt goes!
Texas: It IS nerve wracking! I hope I have as much confidence in myself as you do! :)
Bitchy: Thank you so much for the well wishes. I will let you guys know ASAP!!!
Elle: ROTF at "you look just like Nicole Richie, except with boobs, and no tattoos."
You are my ROCK for a TON of other questions. I have to spread it around a bit or I'd drive one person crazy! I totally heart you so much. You are my sunshine!
Gigi is right: try to take a class on breastfeeding or attending a La Leche League meeting once or twice. It's not as natural as many make it seem. With Buddy (being a preemie and all), I pumped and bottle fed him (breastmilk only) as long as I could. He never did get the hang of it. With Sissy, we called her "The Boobie Bandit". She latched on and wasn't going to give the num-nums up! It's different for all of them.
You'll quickly figure out the rest as you go along. The first few weeks are confusing and stressful - they pass and are replaced by a fun, cooing baby who changes and marvels you every single day!
Awww J-Fab you are so beautiful. You definately have the glow going on. And yes, it will all come naturally. If I could take care of a infant at 15, you can do it too !!! I can't wait to hear what your having. I wanna buy you a present. Hoping its a boy so I can get him some Phillies gear !
Oh boy....you do look 'HOT' :)
Uh.....I'm gonna refrain on any 'breast feeding' comments...See..I know when things are not appropriate :)
You know you're in my thoughts and I'm soooooooooo confident that everything will be all good!
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