On the mend

Hey y'all! I'm so sorry I have not been in real contact since Baby Fab made her arrival. This will be kinda short and the grammer will be poor. (PILLS ARE GOOD!!!!) Things have been kinda blurry. On Sat, my tummy was very sore and tender. Sunday, above my c-section, there started to form a red, hot infection spot. I called Dr and he said to come Monday morn. Sun nite, I got a temp, and had flu like symptoms. I went to Dr on Monday and it was now 10 times worse. He told me it was cellulitis and gave me anti bio and said he will see me on Wed. By Tues night, the entire area above and below the site and spreading down my right leg, the surgery scar was massively hot and swollen. I mean there was a mountain of inf. and it was really painful. I could not even stand up straight. I cried I was so sore. I mean, killing me would have been an option. My neighbor, who is an OB nurse, came over that night and said that it would prob pop open. Well, when I got up to take shower on Wed for Dr appt, it did. It started out as a little hole. I pressed on it and it opened more. I screamed for Jamie, terrified, and my neighbor came over. She said it was good that it ruptured. It took 3 hand towels before I could dress enough to get to Dr. Dr took one look at me and said he was admitting me. He worked on me more in his office and then he took some inst. and opened me up more! Ummm, yeah, it was soooo painful and I cried and cried. I took that without numb meds. He sent me home to get my things and I cried the whole way cause I had to leave Baby Fab. I called my mom to come and help. The rest of yesterday, I just rested. This morn, he came in and wanted to open me up more, but I insisted on numby meds. It helped some, but he went past here the numby ended. He took hemostats and scissors and literally, cut me back open. I took it again b/c I have to get better to get home to my sweet girl. I feel much better this afternoon. I can actually move around without crying in pain. I get to go home tomorrow and I am so happy. It has been very heart breaking to be away from my sweet girl, but I was getting to the point to where I was just unable to take care of her I was so bad off. I was exhausted, too. By tomorrow, I should be back up to par. Because of the strength of the anti bio, I am unable to give the milk to Baby Fab. So, I have to pump and dump. The baby did not have to take the formula until today and I am not sure how long it will be again until I can breast feed. Hopefully, she will take it back. She is a healthy little eater, too!

Let me just go ahead and tell you.... there is NOTHING in my life that will ever compare to when I saw her for the first time. Nothing. She is the most perfect little angel. I would go through this again 10 times to have her again. She has her days and nights mixed up and I am doing everything that I can (well, that's kinds shot right now with me being in here!) to get her on a schedule. She is IMPOSSIBLE to wake up when I need her to, but thanks to Momma (bath her alot!) and Gigi (swaddle her at night) I have been able to get more. Suggestions are always welcome!

I better run before I fall asleep on this laptop! Thank you so much for your prayers and concerns. I love you guys!